Disappointment

why? why did you do that? i chose to believe in you but the evidence is there already yet you are still denying. i really dont know, i dont understand, the things that you said no longer make sense. just when you bring your hopes up high, thinking that this is it, this time it will be different, but then people tend to disappoint? trying very hard not to make a generalisation but how many times have i felt being lied to/ taken for granted of? how can people turn your kindness and goodness to nothing? how can people still be so good with you when they are actually doing sth bad behind you? though sometimes it doesnt harm/affect you, but that act.. it's counted as betrayal. i find it super duper hard to treat people the way i used to treat them (which is good treatment) after i realised their "bad" side or after they have disappointed me.... after they proved that everything that i hoped was great and real was wrong... i cannot face them or talk to them the same way anymore. i can forgive but i cannot and never will forget that kind of shock and realisation they gave me, the scar they left on me. ok it sounded very serious but even the slightest thing like: saying a version of story to me and then another version to another person behind my back (though not bad things about me), i will still feel like cheated? very very slight things i will get affected, of course after much thought like thinking what's the purpose behind their actions/words. that's why over the years, i longer have the fire and passion i had like when i was in secondary school towards friends.. because time and time again, they proved me wrong... yes no doubt i still cherish them but there is always a shield around me, never to trust or put my 100% in them and also not to let people treat me as their bestest friend as well. because no expectation, no disappointment. this is a shitty thing but that's life. sigh, dont know when can i ever treat the person normally again.... not like super good like i used to but at least normal way. now i cant even start a conversation or even look at the person because i cant forget the things that the person did..... what the hell...... why don't people treat others with sincerity and realness? why does it always comes with hurt along the way? this is bullshit.

BYE YEAR 2

Freaking examinations are finally over!!! Oh my goodness, so happy that I'm free! Don't need to study everyday I go home, oh yes!!!! But then still got tuitions.... getting quite lazy for tuitions already.... like I hope to have 2-3 months off from tuition so I can work other jobs... but nah..... cannottttttttttttttt! Though tuition money very good, but then short hours, so..... not that good haha! And then have to get angered by tutees etc etc... crazy potatoes...

For now, I just want to watch movies movies movies movies! Both from cinema and online (past movies)!!!! & also plan for my overseas trips heheheheheh!!!!!! SO HAPPY!!! :) Also many many other plans!!!! :P Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy, have to enjoy while this lasts.....

Happy Birthday precious + 3rd staycation

3rd Staycation <3

Checked in to Festive Hotel this time round because his mother booked it and also cause his overseas aunt was coming to sg to stay so yup that's why the 2 single beds haha! Practically escaped from reality for 3D2N during exams period, ahem....

Because it's his birthday :D

Went to had dinner at Santa Fe Tex-Mex, a ship that at Marina South Pier but ofc not a moving one but still it will sway with the waves which can cause giddy/nauseous spells after awhile. 

We had Ribs with different sauces, buffalo wings and also a glass of wine each :)

When we reached there, there were only like 3 other customers? So we were feeling quite gulps haha but as time passed, more groups of ppl came, so not bad!! The ambience was kinda romantic :D

Bought a cake from Fruit Paradise from Vivo!! They have so many varieties of cakes, yumzzz!!! Guess he was kinda touched :P

This time there's balcony and tsktsktsk good lighting...... but we didn't take alot of photos.

& also our matching caps ahah! Nope i did not put eyeliner on the right photo, I woke up with double eyelids that day... zzz...

Him looking at me while I was getting ready for the photo.... idk what was he doing, or isit he want pose looking at me????? AHAHAHAH

Me: "Oi what you doing?? faster pose!!! cool style!!!"

Hahaha and oops, failed cause the timer went off.... 

And he really posed with himself looking at me. This photo turned out kinda blurry but nice one!!! :) <3 He's just so cute. 

Happy birthday to you my love, may all the happiness be with you and that more good things will happen to you!!!!!!!!!! There's nothing more important than you being healthy and happy. For that I can forgo luxurious gifts, dates, trips, anything.

He never fails to crack me up with anything!!!! HAHAHAHA oh plzzz

You again.......

it's you again finals.... exams coming again....... in a week's time. only motivation? 3 more weeks to freedom, summer! Sounds damn fast right, but yea.... it's gonna be torturous and fast paced. hate it when i have projects that i dont understand. nothing's more worse than something you cannot handle/ cannot do/ cannot change/ cannot control right? helplessness, sucks big time.

so bye, i'll see you again in 3 weeks time :D well..... also another thing to look forward to is my staycation with baby for his bday next week. end of my school, start of study break! it's my last round of happiness and play before things get real real real serious. ugh, hatred? dislike? 

oh yah not to forget, our family got a new helper and wahahahah she's so funny and everyday we will just have so much to talk about and joke about! keke she only been here for 6 days and great, adapting real well and bonding with us well, she's now very comfortable and crazy already haha!!! good good i like, another source of entertainment at home even though there's already so many people at home already :O just need peace during my 3 weeks of study break. 

Train of events

Yay so bubz and I finally tried Pince & Pints! And if you don't already know, it's a restaurant that specialises in selling lobsters! Sadly, the price has increased over the years though they are quite a new start up.

While waiting for our food :) Thanks for giving me such a good view whenever I'm having my meals hahahahahhaah

Yay my lobster roll is here!!!! It seemed abit lacking in terms of portion as compared to the other lobster dishes but hey!!!!!! I'm so wrong!! I was so full after devouring it! And yes like what the reviews recommended, this lobster roll is really the bombz!! I cannot emphasise anymore about this dish but I just love it!! Those huge chunks of succulent lobster meat.... ah..... bring me back!!! :( The garlic sauce also was so nice, I had 2 servings of it, foc btw~

Babe got this Live Grilled lobster and it was also nice!! :) Just that you have to extract the meat out yourself with the "tools" haha! I just love seafood so I definitely enjoyed my dinner that night, ahhhhh love it :D

Extracting the meat out one by one, for himself and for me! Oh yea we shared our dishes obviously, half a lobster roll for each of us, and shared the live lobster meat too, yumyum in our tumtums :D So satisfied and super full!!!!! :)

Whole bill came up to like $135? Very expensive right I know but well, lobster........ once a year's anniversary dinner........ well spent :P <3

Bringing my presents out for a walk hahaha~

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There are so many March babies and after my 21's bday party, it is my turn to go around attending friends' parties :D Both hosting and attending are tiring I would say. 

White theme.

Happy 21st Esther <3

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Have been so busy with school work, assignments, projects, tests, and not forgetting having to go in and out of the hospital to visit and take care of grandma and accompany aunt for check ups, etc.... DRAINED!!! :( Sigh... so hard to just focus on catching up with my school work because seriously so many things are happening right now, and it's so scary/ heart wrenching/ stressful.... Hope everything will soon be fine :'(

Also uploaded the anniversary card that I did for bf :) He was so touched hahah but well, small effort lah, nth much :) 

https://dayre.me/teopeggy/UCdjRbX7Ei

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Then, Tanji's 21st with the netballers :D 

Blue x White theme, seemed like I'm the only one who followed closely to the theme haha like I said it's fun to go with the theme :P Everybody's grown up, surprisingly almost all applied make up, with the minimum being lipstick. And they are so pretty :) 

For me I also think lipstick is like quite essential, will totally make you look as if you have a face full of make up hahah illusion and also helps to perk your face up! Digging those natural coral/pinkish lipsticks :) Oh yea the girls got me Laneige products hahah when I just got a free trial package haha. Dressing table filled with Laneige products currently, keke hope it works well~

Looks as though I'm going cny visiting haha! But well, cny clothes are mostly gonna be worn very few times so it's timely to just wear them out for friends' bday parties yea??? :P

15 minutes change...... haha! Went prawning after the party with love. Shagged ttm, running here and there and well, always gotta spare time to "ESCAPE FROM REALITY" haha which is to be where I am most relaxed and happy with.

Cruelty act, sorry bruhs.... love you.

Then it was the end of yet another 3D2N with bae, with lots of running to hospital, home, party in between as well. Just hope all these will end and everybody will be ok and healthy again, sigh.... heavy heart..... stressful days... jiayou everyone! <3

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Crazy funny ugly face swaps!! HAHA

1) With jayne, quite normal rightttt hahaha

2) With love. He damn ugly as a girl can??!?!? HAHA

3) With elder sis, and scarily... both still looks like me after swapping.... wts eew! After swapping, my elder sis is on the left while I am on the right without spects.

OK BYE NEED TO CATCH UP WITH SCHOOL WORK :(

Peggy's 21st Birthday Party

Wheeee it's 10 March today! :) Happy birthday to myself, officially 21 <3

Still can't believe this fact that I'm fully an adult already :( Weeps.... still stuck at the thought that I'm still 19..... damn it. Time really flies even when you are doing..... nothing.

So last week, I held my advanced bday party @ Treehouse Villa :) It was a 4D3N chalet, but we only stayed there for 3D2N cause nobody could stay for the last day which was till Monday.

Day 1: 

Bf and I went to check into the chalet first cause it was booked under our names like duh, haha! 

First night we got to sleep in the masterbed room :D

Naughty boy who doesn't have the stamina for photo taking.....

Thank you babe for taking half day off to accompany me to check-in :D Though it was a longggggggg ride from Bpp to Tampiness and then cab to the chalet where I flew into rage mode cause of the stupid taxi drivers.... but it didn't feel so long as we were busy competing each other on the GAMEE app hehe. Go download haha, free advertising for them??? But really, it's fun haha :P

Not long later, my family came with dinner!! :D And then we started to set up the place with decorations :) Really grateful to have them, my handy mandy daddy who can fix everything in the world, my ocd elder sister who makes sure things are in order and in place, my meticulous mother who tries to make the impossible into possible, my free-spirited younger sis who helps out whenever she is asked to and my 100marks bf who gets down to assemble the "girly" decoration materials for the first time for me whenever I whine/get agitated cause I can't fix them even when his eyes are closing HAHA! :P <3

The place is really cosy and nice I would say, definitely worth it. Lots of people complimented about the place to me :)

Day 2: 

The party day

Dad donning on the symbol of adulthood on me - the key to freedom :)

Sadly the only nice ootd I have.... too busy :( Thank goodness that I found this gorgeous mermaid-like dress at the very last minute phew!!!! It is soooo flattering haha <3 This dress fetched me lots of compliments that night as well, all its effort!! Oh yah people thought that my dress is damn expensive cause it looks expensive, they thought $80?!?!?! WTH the question is ... will I even buy it if it's $80? HAHA NO! The dress is originally priced at $50 but there was a sale so it's $38 :O Sucha steal, it's from Theclosetlover btw :) This dress was from their past collection I think last year's dec? When it was launched, I was already mesmerised by it but the price was "too pretty" for me hhahah so nah. But wow, 21st bday was a reason for me to splurge coupled with the sale? BUY BUY BUY!! :P Higher end shops really have better quality apparels.

Unglam me but that's not the point. Haha it feels really nice to have my cousins and family helping me out. My cousin was helping me to curl my hair haha and then as more cousins come into the room, they were like commenting that it felt like my wedding day LOL. Friends and relatives also commented on that, I think cause of the apartment has 2 stories and then I'm upstairs preparing while the rest are downstairs waiting hahah!!

Thanks for being colourful HAHA. 

I really like colourful parties as it feels more happy and positive ^^

Was called into the room and surprised by this lovely guestbook!!! Oh my,..... totally carnival style haha! wanted to make my photobooth sth like that but.... materials were a headache but yay I got it in a card form! So nice, I love it!!! :D Received lots of praises for this book as well, thanks cousins & sisters <3 :D

My deco + my cake.

The awkward moment which made me have stage fright because what I saw infront was a huge crowd of people looking back at me and most with their phones facing me............ damn scary!

Wish for..... *shhh secret*

May all things good surround me and the people I love, xo.

As I looked through my photos, I realised that my table damn empty LOL I totally forgot to deco it with popcorns and crackers which I already bought to deco.... sian..... argh.... haha somemore the table damn big so it emphasised the emptiness.... zzz

Cut the cake and constantly preparing my face for photo taking to make it less awkward and twitchy.... cause I'm nervous af.

I LOLED when I looked through the photos to see them happy faces hahahahah cause my idiot sis shouted for me to give a speech after I cut my cake, argh...... HAHA but people looking damn happy, niceeeee candid :)

And it was when........ someone shouted "eh dont cry leh!!!" then the switched was on and I cried!! Walao.... I dont want to cry one leh, haha damnit embarrassing!!!! :( Touched + Nervous + Scared = Cry, (im weak like that)

Family <3

My hero <3

Grandparents (my maternal grandpa didnt come)

Sec sch clique :)

Sec sch buddies :>

Kranjianssssss + plus 1s :D

Kranjians also, bf's friends!

Jc class girls, :P

Jc clique, :D

Jc class (not full)!!!

Cousins <3 (not all as well)

The under 25 years old cousins HAHAH :P

Cousins +1s.

Paternal relatives :D

Naughty nephews :) (missing 1 baby nephew and 2 baby nieces :( )

Maternal side relatives :>

Thank you everyone who came down to my party, it meant alot!! Thank you for your presents, cards, well wishes, I LOVE THEM ALL!!! :D hehehehehe

After most of the people went home, muahah we went to play with the "mini pool". At first we were just talking till someone started splashing and oh no, game began!!! Everybody was totally wet hhaha and we even played lots of games and losers had to get dunked!!!! WTF :P

And after that, it was the long awaited drinking session, actually not looking forward haha but at least I've got bf to help me tank :)

Soon, the females were tipsy already and we were making damn lot of noises hahhha totally crazy!!! The guys still very upz, bleh! And in the end.... I was the only one who collapsed after a round of crying HAHA (when i'm drunk I will cry). So it was their aim to make me reach my crying stage, bitch plz HAHA!! Really drank alot and anyhow mixed thats why eeew yucks vomits!!! HAHA not to forget, my younger guy cousin vomited which made my bf vomit as well cause it was damn disgusting EEEWWW ok stop I feel like vomiting now. We even got all the videos of the crazy night holy...... :P

Everyone had a good night's rest and woke up to parents preparing a table full of yummy ingredients for us for steamboat!! Thanks 24/7 dad & mom :D <3 Perfect way to end the chalet :)

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Last but not least, on the very same day 10th of March, Happy 5th Year Anniversary to us!! <3 You've been such a joy and angel in my life, guiding me through my decisions and helping me out with things that I couldn't settle. Haha you are like my calming potion, always asking me to calm down whenever I get stressed out or get agitated, which is very frequent! Oops! I salute you for being able to tolerate all my nonsense, my temper, my crankiness, I really need to clap for you. Haha well done my favourite hero, you are stuck with me for life!!!! :P Love you so much, no words could suffice. xoxo here's to many more years together darling <3